this is fucking retarded

HI I'm a civil rights activist, mainly because I couldn't make anything out of my own life. My great-great Grandfather was a slave for 80 years and feel that an apology is owed to me, because I have been spoiled by this nation seeing as I am a pity case, although all I can do is bitch because I really can't even write my own name. OH shit be right back there is a white man at the gas station buying CHOCOLATE milk. I will PICKET! IT IS WRONG, skin color is what represses us! It has nothing to do with ignorance or the lack of acceptance!

Now as a grandson of a KKK member, I will never let my family's past reflect on my mindset, I hate hicks, I don't care about ethnicity, It is all bullshit. However, when others do, I will defend my name, because this racial card is becoming more and more bullshit. Our president sucks dick and the percentage of people with common sense are starting to regret electing that fuckass, but there are still those that blindly follow skin color, It is like a disease. Ignorance is like HIV it just spreads and spreads and after 15 years of flooding the liberal media. It turns into AIDS and attacks the immune system of a whole country.

People need to just learn to accept commonsense. That's It! Create a political party called Common Sense, Fuck religion(republicans), and Fuck dreamworlds(democrats), We need a team of real engineers, biologists, chemists, and philosophers, to decide what can resolve problems for this nation, Factual proposals, none of this opinionated bullshit, It's like we can't even think. Our government is built up of liberal arts majors that know what happened in the past, but have no fucking idea how to change a car battery. How is a law major qualified to moderate environmental awareness... and not a biologist, geologist, or even a fucking botanist... but a lawyer? WOW.

This Common Sense party is a great idea, We would probably get shit done, rather than talking about the dumbest fucking healthcare bill ever.

THIS nation makes me fucking sick! FUCK YOU racist bastards... YES I know there a black people that are racist. Especially the apathetic, egotistical fuck asses that jump on a bus and picket if a black kid falls on the ground and scrapes his knee in a game of kickball. And why do white people have to get michael jackson when he is a rapist, but when he dies and is seen a savior, Rev. Fucktard is there making sure his "african american name and success" is preserved. If i hear someone say, "it's because I'm black. " It probably is, make them change their mind about your race rather than sitting there pointing fingers and bitching dipshit..

I hate bugbites

Hmmm...

well i am on Unicorn now, Pretty chill server with nice people. fuck siren.

Umm yea i have nothing to really rant on at the moment, but for that lolVD shell back on siren, they can suck it, starting unnecessary drama. What a bunch of asshats!

Im going back to sleep


=p blog updated k?

No..

Recently, I have had a health kick, Running, eating healthy, and just overall being happy. Something my life has been missing for a while. I feel joy, No more asshole depressed bullshit. It's like opening your eyes after a long nap, Just refreshing.


No This is not a personal day to day journal, Just a place for me to organize my thoughts. And seeing as how it was first about my MMO addiction... which is creeping away. I find this a great place to vent. People can read sure, but I don't care.


What's New? Well I had 2 tests last week, and only a few more labs and classes until I am done with summer semester. It's Great.. I feel like i got an A on the Voltage test, and I got a 95 on the last Calc test. This feeling it's Power, Control, and morale boost from a HARD year. There is no other way to put it.


Last week I was relaxing with my uncle and we discussed a lot of theories, even reaching into some quantum mechanics. The mind is an amazing thing, everything that seems so real... IS PERCEPTION. A perception we don't understand. Chemically It is just... a reaction that is electrically produced.. AMAZING.

RIP... umm wait... WHAT?

"Somebody died..."~Person
"Who?"~Typical American
"Well three people. One was a Model, a mother, and a strong woman fighting cancer. One was a war hero and a man beloved by America. The last one was a washed out pop icon that molested children. Oh and he was made of plastic."~Person
"Oh shit... I loved 'Thriller.'He will be missed"~Typical American

Michael Jackson was hated by most... What happened? Did his death make you care again? It's this god damned fixation with the demented and fashionable bullshit. Rather than meeting the creator or Topic of the story...EVERYONE is fixated on the actors. You Know nothing about them... they act.... meet the real heroes PLEASE and stop sticking you head up the liberal media ASS... there soo much I want to say, but honestly.. I am too fed up with everyone right now..GOOD FUCKING NIGHT

too simply imply..

I have been busy... between ElysianField and friends and school. I am looking forward to this coming up weekend with my father. After this friday I will only have 4(hopefully get to skip calc final) more tests left and I will be sitting on my A's and B's smiling and Cheering like a little teenage girl on prom night.

To learn is to take away all that is known.. and then rebuild upon the foundation of Shut the fuck up... i don't know what I'm saying, i swear the NAACP just lowered my IQ after reading this article.. a republican representative said that an escaped gorilla from the zoo was Michelle Obama's ancestor.

first off its not ancestor if it is current... maybe cousin.. or mother.. or maybe it is Michelle Obama, god she is ugly. This liberal media is drawing too much positive feed from the democrats... but they get annoyed when the Conservatives pay it forward from the past 8 years. I mean sure the baby boomer generation has royally fucked us in the ass, but the guy is president. MAKE JOKES. His wife looks like an amazonian retard, sure... he has dumbo ears. he cant say one sentence without a dramatic pause. His daughters have nappy hair. make jokes, be racist... It will take the edge off, make life a lot better for everyone. Fuck the economy let it burn down, lets just build up all this debt for my generation. Thanks a lot asshole! I bet he even wants some of my fucking sweet tea.. NO! kiss my ass. I'd rather have tax increases instead of having what the taxes feed into... draw money.. OUT OF THEIR FUCKING ASS! That way the future taxes will suck even more than a slight tax increase, but just for my generation.

"I'm Just a Hooligan Who's Used to Using Hallucinogins"

I have taken a few years off from rap in my life but Eminem always grasps my attention.
hahaha Summer classes are hard but fun. I feel like they are cramming the book into my brains but I'm slowly getting it. It is like what they have done to me for the past 18 years but crammed old complexities into new fundamentals and are building new mind-frames for me to better myself as a human being. I still am addicted to this damned MMO... I guess i just have to adjust.

Finals week....

Finals week....

I, as most college kids do, study, but the difference between me and them is my concept of procrastination. When I should be finishing my paper I am watching TV and leveling a new job on Fuckal Fuckasy XI.... Its hot in my room, and I have to pee...

Censorship Is Indeed for Morons

"Take a map of the human female body. You have the eyes, ears, nose, and mouth. Go down some more and you have neck, shoulders, arms, breasts..." *giggle from a kid* "...stomach, waist and then.... Vagina" *Laughs from an entire 4th grade class*

Now that is censorship in its primal form. A fucking Giggle. the kids are told that these parts are inappropriate and they know their parents can't stop the teacher from saying... VAGINA... let's laugh kids because our parents will NEVER know. You know that is just plain bullshit. People can talk about god and his amazing creation of man, but the true tools that created the man, Penises and Vagina's alike ARE SHUNNED. It is re-fucking-diculous. Its like taking an apple, showing it a sac full of seeds, which is made by man, and saying that that is where it came from, but you cant talk about trees goddammit. NO trees are naughty, just like the penis and vagina that created every single fucking mammal on this fucking planet.

Another thing censored is the concept of curse words, To be honest... Its just the context of the phrase.. For example... a kid says "What the Freak?!" and his mom laughs... but he says "What the FUCK?!" and his mom beats the fuck out of him.. Freak and fuck have the same meaning right? So what's the big deal? I blame religion personally, but hey... i am just an asshole.

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fuck I feel shitty
and I stretched my ears
they feel shitty
I have 2 tests and a paper due tomorrow
and I feel shitty
WTF?! WHY?!

P.S.

Fuck rocks... Why?

Hmm... I figured I'd blog about a misconception. Why shouldn't I? Misconception is just an different angle to a conception, Why does it have to be MISconception. That is like having a Misreligion, although we all know religion is bullshit. Do people even read this? Maybe a fat bald guy will start stalking me I bet that would be something amusing. This middle aged sick fuck walks up to my house to be greeted by a late-teen ready to smash his face in. Thats what those shows should do, instead of the child molester being greeted by a TV host, he is greeted by a bunch of 20ish year old guys that still have that ego and "No Shit" attitude. In the end they'd be going to jail for murder, but it would be amuzing.

I wonder why people say to "Support the Troops." Don't get me wrong I am all for the war in iraq, but lets just be honest. We need control, has nothing to do with helping a nation, fuck it. I support the WWII heroes that didnt have all this safety shit and came back home from the war with none of this Post Traumatic Stress Bullshit. Give me a disorder and I'll show you a fucker with a lack of attention to common sense, and he also feels that everything wrong with him has nothing to do with his own actions. Let's pin the blame on monkeys releasing toxins in the air for ADD. There now the crack babies are no longer Crack babies, but ridden with ADD from the monkey toxins.

Vaplade has started up a new LS, its looking good, and noone has that fucking, Suck-a-nut ego like some shells. And in all honesty I like Epic and I am no longer referring to them as fags. they make me feel like an ass, but hell I like to fight fire with fire. You can check out the new shell at ElysianField.forumotion.com.

My writing may piss people off, but it humors me, So I don;t give a shit. The other day some fucker was yelling at me and claiming he had a large IQ and knew the world about hydroponic "plant" Growing. So I replied, "Did you graduate High School?" And well he didn't, so his over defensive mind felt it was necessary to descibe how the current school system is complete bullshit and ease. So I will finish off with, If it is sooooooo Easy, Why did you not graduate. OHHHH ok, you were too busy being stoned off your ass 24/7. Fuck off Mr. Fuck-a-rock.

Man this week blows like a 30 dollar whore.... I hate it, FUCK YOU!

yea

lol, I forgot about this shit already.

The Hands on the Clock Of Jonathan Shaffer

What makes me tick? The psychoanalytical study of the cognitive processes of Jonathan Shaffer. 

Social Shifts in life:

Good shit about me? Do not know, do not care, I love to help people that are not total fuck ups, If you are a fuck up I will ignore you. If I am stuck with you, I will torment you and make your life a living hell. I like sweet tea, I, on rare occasions, i do exceptionally well on something. In order to do something well, I have to give a damn. 

Perhaps I am an extremely self conflicted individual, With no care, no hope for caring, or a helping hand. Doubtful, I'm Just realistic. All you fuckers in High School go to the middle of your campus, Take a look around, pick three random people from 3 different cliques, Sit them in a room together with you. Say goodbye to your close friends, Make new ones. These 3 people are your only way to maintain the ability to be social and not go crazy. You hate it, all the world is crashing down. Slowly though, they become people and then, Oh My God! What is this? They are friends, you rely on them, you call them if they miss a class to catch them up on missed material or announcements, You email, text, chat on facebook, have lunch, and even respect these people. Congrats you are realizing how fucked up High school is. Senior year gives you a flavor of the Humanity these people had, but You all have grown, It will get crazy and weird, but nice at the same time.

My religious views:

After extensive research in the field of religion, I have made many observations and hear me out please. 
1. The crazy bitch that tries to convert you, has something she feels bad for doing in her lifetime and is therefore, probably a whore.
2. Valeighauebha gbuab uhen jegjububa oowtuh jhagubeb bfiie vbeo lab.
3. This above statement could have been pasted in the bible and conspiracy theories on its true meaning would have been made over the last 2000+ years. Although I just typed random letters.
4. Most of the Monotheism's were created in areas with a lack of elements other than sand or deformed babies. 
5. Most of the Polytheism's have many elements around them ranging from rivers, grass, wind, mountains, snow, and other shit. Anreicus failed to climb the mountain because the frigid weather was caused by the Ice god.
6. Reincarnation began when Shareen got knocked up by Roulin and Muheatl. Both babies were deformed, so thus hinduism. Roulin killed Shareen because of the affair and three weeks later a snake bit Roulin in the dick. Eight days after Roulins death a bird flew into Muheatl's business place and took a large shit on all of his items. Coincidences lead to the belief that these were the returning forms. Coincidences from bad situations are usually caused by guilt. 

I choose to just not care about religion, I honestly do not care what happens to me when I die, I am more concerned about life. Thanks for the Offer of false reliance on a non physical spirit. No I am not atheist and no I am not after the rebellion from Mommy and Daddy

The Breaking down on my concerns:

I need a job, but this economy is SHIT. I need to go to sleep, but Mountain Dew will not let me. I need to get motivated in life, but college drains you so do not give me that shit. I honestly miss like two people, I still have awesome conversations with eric, He is probably my best friend, in my opinion at the moment, but I miss girls, There are a total of 3 at my school, all engaged or something. The something meaning... UGLY. LAME. Illiterate. Take a pick I do not care. MOST IMPORTANTLY the people that used to not bother me, Piss me the fuck off, Aka people with dreams that are somewhat dull in my opinion or just plain cheesy.

I write when i can not sleep

 Sitting, Sitting, Sitting... Laying down OHHHH!!!!!, What can people say, to those that do not interact, that has any social satisfaction.? I mean if you think about it, Those that don't interact are the ones that were quiet in high school, but in college they are the ones you trust. How do they go from "Quiet and scary" to "Trustworthy Companion." If that is true I am the exact opposite, Not one person trusts me in college because I was that smart guy that corrected the teacher and got along with every student, no matter what "clique" they were in. 

  Observations:

- Stuff that looks nice to the generation will look dull to the next.

- Stuff that looks nice to our grandchildren, looks nice to us.

- Stuff that looks nice to our children, Piss us the fuck off.

- 12/22/20012 sure has enough 2's. Did the mayans admire testicles?

- Midgets like to rock from left to right.

- SoBe can Fucking keep you awake, Do not drink that if you have a test. Thank god I don't

- I have not seen an attractive female since Christmas.. My school Sucks... Well actually... has a lack of sucking.

- Tax returns are good to give the irresponsible American a new item to sport when they have to pay late bills two months after receiving that check(ahem... New Tattoo)

- Anything with more and more common differences from a type, expose common similarities in the related type of object.(monkeys all look the same to humans)

  I can feel sleep coming over me but I would rather go Wind surfing. .

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Why did I do that? I don't know, perhaps this is one step closer to personal satisfaction in momentary personal knowledge. Just like any other person, I know who I am and what purpose I have attained at the moment, but what about in 20 days, weeks, months, or years? I may be dead.... who knows? Who cares? 80% of the people you know now, You will lose contact from within 9 to 15 years, be it by dead or life. It is a cycle. Wanna see something neat? My buddies from Daath released a new song, they rule!!!!!

if anyone needs a vent server let me know. I have one thats just bored, you will have admin rights.

Pshhh... college FTW.

   Today I awoke to the sound of my alarm telling me "Hey douchebag, You have a fucking math test today." Well not really, It was Montell Jordan's "This is how We do it." On a side note , i love that fucking song, makes me feel 7 years old again, with no worries and slightly more sane. So with my face half deep in a pillow and the sun glaring through to blind my right eye. I throw my right arm onto the snooze button. Yea.. 11:55 PM EST on a tuesday when my math test is at 1:00 PM. Wow, thats procrastination and laziness at its finest.

    My math test was pretty simple i feel like i got somewhere between an 88 and a 92, there were 2 of the equations that I could not make sense of, but an A is an A. God knows I need it, with all the shit that has been going on. 

Yea, i did it... shut up

   I am creating this blog as an attempt to allow people to see what makes me tick. The reason I get a lot of shit is mostly due to the fact that I, at times, can be a dick. I an a dick because i like to attack egotistical pissants. Honestly who has a super ego in a game? Thats like being a professional bag opener, or a senator(lol!). So, today I slept till 2pm in an attempt to be lazy... it worked but i have class at 6.. mmm Engineering graphics. 

    What am I in to now? Brain Droppings by the late George Carlin. 

    Why?  Well he is one of the greatest geniuses of our lifetime and everything he says is, for the           most part, True.

    I like to write, and explore the mind of the average human being. Believe it or not, humans are not all about porn. They like other things like... Food, TV, Drugs, and Children(some in different ways than others). I am also feeling more and more like a large percentage of the people on this MMO from hell that I am addicted to, Are weird ass anime critics or love to touch little boys.. again some people love children in different ways. 

Here is a rant of mine:

"Motivationally speaking of course, it is wrong to judge those that play music, but honestly, there are some things that just lack any talent, self preservation, or all together well defined musicianship. For example, chug-core, or anything considered "brutal." It is fine to have that stage, sure, hell I will admit to having one but it is just to feed the minds of the youth and encourage individualism. As for the whole vacuum cleaner to the dick thing and then proceeding to try to sing as feminine as hannah montana, I am sorry. Even the most estrogen filled man can not hit notes like a 12 year old girl. Things have been some how falling into my lap, and one of them was that you honestly have to admire the real revolutionaries of music like Led Zeppelin, Mozart, the Beatles, Cavemen, and a bunch of anal old men on different types of drugs ranging from opium to LSD. There is a certain bias to this writing but in retrospect music is what we make it, I mean everything starts off as an unknown idea, and is processed in the mind, then put at a pace. Once the pace is set the Organization of the pace and the different methods, types, and theories all start to build. That is how every aspect of human life starts ranging from music to science to religion to sports to shopping to pregnancy and finally to life, death, and the in between known as HELL. Why are we so organized? There is a structure formed with any discovery to build "professions." Is this advanced psychology? I do not know. All i used to do was smoke weed and ponder on life, then LSD helped in a bit of mental organization. In the words of the late, great George Carlin "They helped open me up. You know, if a drug has anything going for it at all, it should be self-limiting. It should tell you when you've had enough. Acid and peyote were that way for me." 

There is a scholarly level to any mind opening drug, the extent of reaching an unknown path to the other side of sanity is mixed with a list of virtues that a human can relate with. Not the whole "Honor, Respect, Love, Faith, ETC..." But more like the original Virtues not the crafted by ideal behaviors of society. These virtues have just become the break down of language. Again language is just the thorough examination of human nature and the ability to communicate based of the real virtues of humanity. These virtues are similar to the "Who? What? When? Where? and How?" methods of discovering. You see, they have become a automatic trigger in the brain when something new arrives at our little curious eyes. 

Here is a perfect example, If you walk out side and there was a man, Only wearing a speedo, with a bra on his feet, shoes attached to earrings, and he was standing on one foot on your car. Automatically you will wonder. "Who the hell is this guy? What is he doing on my car? When the fuck were speedos socially acceptable? Where did he come from? and How did he manage to keep the bra on both of his feet while only standing on one foot?" It is common nature. Every need is based off of common thought. The curiosity is listed by the 5 questions (real Virtues) But those are even the products of narrowing down off of humanity. It can come down to "Huh?!" Which is what the original Cavemen thought when they found fire. Then they narrowed it down on its uses, how to make it, When you can and cannot have it, What it is, and so forth. These are simple thoughts that have hit my brain recently.

The CRAZIEST thought to hit me came on a normal day. I was standing there reflecting on history and the pride of a nation(not just america but all nations). And i wondered, How the hell are the people 200 years from now going to look at us? I already got a little freaked out when I read teleportation is possible on a small matter level, as is the recreating of the same matter, something like Double matter. 2 Identical particles down to the atomic level. There will be a change in speed, connection, communication, and transportation in the years to come."